There is a roulette wheel spinning inside me somewhere. Each day, it lands on a new space and that tends to be the mood I have to work with for the day.

Today, the wheel has landed on the thought that there is a friendship of mine on the rocks with nothing at all that I can do about it and that doing nothing will let the friendship die completely.

I know that is far, far from the truth and most of my day will be spent telling myself that over and over again. But this is how my life has been for the last few weeks and I don’t quite understand what’s going on.

So my therapy appointment today will be trying to figure that out, if I have anything to say about it (and I do). And maybe getting some ideas on how to get out of this.